Successes where I can get them

So, sometimes I need to just take whatever success I can get.

I went shopping today for dinner. I take a long time to shop lately because a) I am shopping for myself and have to think about things like, "will I eat this before it goes bad" and "what can I buy now to eat later this week" and "do I have enough food in my house right now," b) I'm trying to budget like crazy and not spend all my money on food and c) I've been really really trying to be good at weight watchers and have been reading labels like crazy. So my shopping trips have become...an adventure all their own. Often I find myself talking out loud, muttering about the cost of some item, or weighing the pros and cons of a particular food item. Today, as I pondered the hamburger buns I said out loud, "Oh! 6 grams of fiber. That's great." The woman next to me didn't actually know what to make of that.

So when I checked out today, I had pretty much bonded with my food. I had labored over each broccoli head (to buy a floret or a whole broccoli...time vs. money...epic battle of head versus heart) and I knew every nutritional fact. The woman who checked me out looked over my items (my whole wheat buns, my veggie burgers, my broccoli, my glorious high fiber english muffins, my decadent low fat whipped cream) and said "Everything you bought was low fat or low in calories! You're one healthy eater!"

And I felt the warm glow of a job well done. The warmth of false modesty settled around me as I tried to deny it. It was a great moment. Today I felt good when I sat down to watch the Biggest Loser...I had been pegged as one of those healthy eaters. That elusive highest echelon of shoppers. Already I feel as though I am one of those people who wake up at 6 am and go for a jog.

And then I ate my weight watchers onion rings in front of the TV and that feeling passed. Weigh in tomorrow! Hope it's good news. And if it's not, it just means I have to try harder next week. That's all from me.